Im worn out. Wanted to shout and scream at everyone everything that is happening right now. Im not sure if this is the right path, i always seem to set high expectations and yet, feel lousy even after I surpass it. I don't have any sense of satisfaction, acheivement, nothing. Everything that Im doing, amounts to NOTHING. And im forced to make meaning out of it, im trying to convince myself that the real thing at the end is going to be much more enjoyable, that it is going to be different from what is it now. Im so worn out. Test, exams, assignments, lesson plans, and what not. How is it going to help in what im going to do in the future? I feel so corrupted, so stained, so dirty. Why am i feeling this way??

It doesnt help when I have to live and share my life, my time, my personal space with people around me. I need my own space and time. Everthing is so cramped, everyone is surrounding one another. I just want to be alone.