I'm really growing SIDEWAYS. Yet, I'm too lazy to get down to serious gyming.... Twice a week of 20 lap swim isn't going to put my weight down, considering the amount of food I'm always craving for and EATING. SHIT. Ran for a run round my estate yesterday and after a round, it started pouring heavily... there goes my running.

Starting school-work in 3 weeks. Im UBER SAD that I have to ditch my shorts and skirts and slippers away. WHAT THE HELL. AARTRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Shopping for decent attire is such a chore.

Cambodia in 2 weeks!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

I can't help but to scream " I'VE GRADUATED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

Results: 2 B plus and 2 A minus

And to celebrate the beginning of a new phase of my life, we had....................

To punish him for his stingy-ness, I finished the drinks by myself, leaving him to thirst to death.

I was so angry that I bit him till he screamed out loud in public

Not long later, we kissed and made peace with each other

And we are good again :)

To appease me, He “打肿脸皮充胖子”so that I will look skinner

However uncle you are, I still love you as much as I love my kopi and teh :)

Gonna sign the NIE contract tmr. Doesn't really make a difference, after all, my career was pathed out 4 years ago when I signed THE contract, tmr's just a step forward. So, let's just hope that I would turn out a responsible teacher, and a hip one.

I really hate it when some classmates around me pass judgements on teachers wannabe, commenting that they are out hunting for iron rice bowl when the economy is in this bad state. Putting aside their intentions, we can never doubt their ability to teach and their commitment to the education sector. So what if teaching was never their first choice? Who knows if they will like teaching at the end of the day and turn out to be wonderful and inspirational teachers?

I hate people who are too judgemental, makes life difficult for others and for themselves. Why can't you just lead a simple life and not think too much into things? No wonder I can never feel at ease whenever I'm around you. And I'm not feeling guilty over it.

I'm referring to my classmate, though she will never read this ( because I changed my blog add, not wanting her to have a share of my personal life and thoughts) but I JUST WANNA PEN DOWN MY FUSTRATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!

Random, but it's me

I drink when I'm upset, frustrated, when I feel that I'm unappreciated, misunderstood. I like drinking, so I basically drink as and when I like. Wine and beer. I love hoegaarden, dislike Tiger, love red wine. My boyfriend calls me an alcoholic, I don't deny being one, and I like it actually.

I have my fears. Here and there. But there's this constant nagging one. At my worst, it bothers me every single day, every single second. Sometimes I feel like I'm a living bomb, ready to explode anytime from all the fears and worries.

Ops, I just finished my Hoegaarden.

Sometimes, I get depressed counting to the no. of years left I get to spend with my loved ones.

I hate people having expectations of me. "Aiya jo, confirm at least second upper la, aiya jo, confirm A for thesis la. aiya jo, confirm finish her presentation and report liao la." DAMN YOU. I'm capable of achieving that, but i just hate to hear it from others.

I'm individualistic, selfish in layman terms. I don't see a problem with it, unless I do hurt ppl around me. So, I would like to apologise to ppl whom I've unknowingly offended. Sorry. But I need and treasure and value my personal time and space.

I realised Dk has influenced me in some ways, or rather, it's embedded in me, just need that catalyst to spark it off. I've grown to exert the view that" as long as I'm happy the way I'm , I don't have to give a damn to what others think of me." That's good and bad at the same time, but I guess for now, it's ok.

I cry easily, but only when I'm alone.

I really dislike the idea of shopping for working wear. bye bye sphag tops, shorts and slippers :(

I have no idea what kind of teacher I will evolve into.

I'm still thinking whether to have mac's or ya kun for breakfast tmr.

I'm craving for badminton.

If anything best describes the state I'm in now, it would have to be the state of inertia. I'm suppose to keep the clothes hanging in the kitchen, iron tonnes of clothes and plan for my enrollment into NIE, but I have no idea what to plan for or to plan for what or is there even something that I need to plan for? I bought books and national geographic back from Beijing and was so excited over the purchase, I thought yes! Finally I can laze at home and read and read and read, but I've yet to do so. The day was spent with me waking up at 830, having my coffee and the delicious 枣糕 while reading the papers, after which i surfed the net, and DK came over. We lazed around, had lunch, looked at the photos, took a nap and off he went for his lifeguard test.

And I'm still bumming around. Life has never been this easy for a long time. Yet I kept on having the feeling that Im so gonna lose my freedom coming 22th June onwards. I was telling DK now I know what ppl meant when they say being a student is still the best, I was telling him the uncertainties that I had about stepping into another phase of my life, how I was afraid of upholding responsibilities of a teacher, an adult in the working world. Being a quietly faithful and thoughtful,yet lacking-in-words boyfriend, he offered what he could offer, which I greatly appreciate.

I know it's been hard on you bibi, the unspoken pressure and troubles which you never told me but of which i knew. I love you just the same. I believe in you :)

Back from Beijing! But I shall digress to the last day of my exams before posting the pics of Beijing.

The last paper I had, was also the longest answer that I have ever written in my uni life. Hope all goes well. BUT YEAH, I GRADUATED!!! WOOHOO!!

After that, I met up with my DK, and had dinner with my parents, bro and his gf for dinner at The Cathay. Papa was exceptionally talkative that day and kept on talking and talking and talking... for those who have known him since my sec sch days, would know that he rarely talks like this. But anw, he and my mum were in high spirits that night ( I'm not so much though, which is weird, since i'm the one who has graduated) and suggested going to paul brenner's for drinks. and so we went and i had like a litre of beer and the band was great! It was certainly a memorable night, you know, having your closest family by your side, on the day of your last paper.

此时此刻，我才真正地体会到那句老掉牙的感叹“还是当学生最好”。
立志在接下来的一个月仔细、细心地品尝自由的滋味。
人生才刚开始。 :)