You know we've all heard of it, life is not a bed of roses. But it's sure full of the thorns. When the going gets tough, the tough doesn't seems to be going. The tough can get tired sometimes, even though it's not, the tough just wants to throw all duties and responsibilities away, tuck herself in bed and sleep her work away. She sometimes let loose completely and don't feel guilty doing so. She craves for me time, she wants coffee, national geographic, peace and serenity.

Tomorrow's the deadline for submission of FYP. I've handed my baby this wednesday. I'm however, not confident of an A, for I see others who have put in much more effort. I asked myself repeatedly, what have I gained from writing a thesis from scratch? For all the brainstorming, researching, crying and fretting. Apart from the research skills that one is suppose to possess, I've seen how passion drives one, how it makes anything possible. Something which I don't thing I will be able to achieve. What's my passion???Hmmmmm....... 老一辈的华校生真的非常有人情味。他们对于文学的热忱是令我最为佩服的。

原来，再艰难的任务也有顺利完成的一天，再艰苦难熬的日子也会过去。可是，等待着我的，还有无数个这样的日子、无数个恼人的考验。有时，真的还蛮累的。

Today marks the end of fyp. Converted my word document into PDF and am going to submit next week. Come to think of it, the stress, anxiety, unhappiness that fyp inflicted on me ( ok i admit, it's self-induced also) amounts up to a thesis. It's just a thesis. I don't need this thesis to bring me any further in life. I don't intend to pursue a Masters, I don't need a thesis to teach the secondary school kids. But, I do need a thesis to graduate.

Still, thinking back, there's more to life than a thesis.

However, Im glad to say that university has been the most fruitful period of my studying life.

This shall be super random.

I had a good rest this study break. I did my presentation, some revision at a slow slow pace, slept fot 8 hours everyday, read my national geographic, visited my popo, spent time with family and dear dear, and treated myself well.

And, now, with 2 more presentations and 1 report to go, it's gonna be full steam again. Then there comes the dreaded exams and CHINA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Im hooked to national geographic and starbucks. Caramel frap, iced caffe latte. blah blah blah.

Its gonna be 3 quarter steam today.....