Im worn out. Wanted to shout and scream at everyone everything that is happening right now. Im not sure if this is the right path, i always seem to set high expectations and yet, feel lousy even after I surpass it. I don't have any sense of satisfaction, acheivement, nothing. Everything that Im doing, amounts to NOTHING. And im forced to make meaning out of it, im trying to convince myself that the real thing at the end is going to be much more enjoyable, that it is going to be different from what is it now. Im so worn out. Test, exams, assignments, lesson plans, and what not. How is it going to help in what im going to do in the future? I feel so corrupted, so stained, so dirty. Why am i feeling this way??

It doesnt help when I have to live and share my life, my time, my personal space with people around me. I need my own space and time. Everthing is so cramped, everyone is surrounding one another. I just want to be alone.

It's funny that you lead a peaceful life for 23 years, and then one day, things happen, things change, and you have no choice but to accept it. Life goes on, isn't it?

It's also ironic that contentment and unity as a family truely shines it light on me, now.

Im penning this down not for hte sake of pennign it down. I want to connect with you gals, i wanna keep in touch with you yes you! Because life is short, life is beautiful, I wouldn't wish for any lost moments with you, whom ive had wonderful times with. Yes we are all so busy, busy like bumble bees. What for? for money? but it's ironic that money binds people down, money doesn't grant you the freedom you desire. What to do? As DK will say. And so, my question is, how? how do i get my freedom without feeling an inch of pain for the lost money, for giving up material wants????

And so, i answered myself today. I went for my first ever manicure and bought myself a samsung jet, the latter to be claimed. My freedom, as of now, is constrained within whatever that is limiting me, bordering me.

It was all wishful thinking, thinking that you might want to see me since im sick, and that im making effort to meet you despite my hellish schedule. And all i got was " but you are ok already mah"

Hi world

It's been ages since I last wrote. Am simply overwhelmed by the changes in life. I should not be complaining, for I have a job, and my family with me. You know, I've been thinking, well not exactly reflecting, but yeah, why should I bother over the things that can't be undone, can't be changed and make myself so miserable and stressed up. Come what may, I just have to get things done and the ordeal will be over. I can;t possibly fret over the existing ones and the many ones yet to come, afterall,life is about challenges and changes. THIS IS LIFE. So i've some sort of come to my senses, just do the assignments, make the changes in my lifestyle, go with the flow of life and it's changes, so that I won't drown admist the waves, at least i still get to swim right? I hope I will be able to keep with the promises that I made to myself.

Selfish. Yes I'm selfish.
I want my room, my private space that I retreat to every single day and night.
I hate changes.
Especially when I have no choice and no say in anything.
Whatever happens in your generation left me with no choice.
无奈。觉得自己很自私。但我更渴望是属于自己的空间、隐私。

Off to the land of mystic temples and palace in 7.5 hr!

mission: to take lots of pictures of the beautiful angkor wat and to try the angkor beer :)

Cya gals when im back! Su! I wanna listen to your stories!

Last but not least, love ya bibi :) Cya on thurs :)

I'm really growing SIDEWAYS. Yet, I'm too lazy to get down to serious gyming.... Twice a week of 20 lap swim isn't going to put my weight down, considering the amount of food I'm always craving for and EATING. SHIT. Ran for a run round my estate yesterday and after a round, it started pouring heavily... there goes my running.

Starting school-work in 3 weeks. Im UBER SAD that I have to ditch my shorts and skirts and slippers away. WHAT THE HELL. AARTRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Shopping for decent attire is such a chore.

Cambodia in 2 weeks!!!!!!!!!!!! :)